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shitiest day ever


I bought a new. Blackberry torch for $500 plus $51. Then I cried my way back to my dorm room in the freezing freaking cold.
And nobody knows..
………………………………….n now I think I’m going to get a job…..

I am so tired of doing things myself :(………………………………………………..:(
..I have to.
I don’t know..,

…………………………….I dream of things I’m not supposed to. I think of things I’m not supposed to. I talk to people who don’t know me. I’m trying to fit into a society that’s basically decided its exclusive only. I. Don’t give a fuck………………………………………………………………

……… I’m confused. I need to get a job.. Why is it always me? Me?me?.. 😦 ….I’m so lonely here……………………………………………………………..

—-7 hours later—

I’m still crying in my room. I keep writing weird………………….facebook. But I feel stupid and dumb……….
…………………..I wish I never told ………………insurance

I feel sad, hungry, tired, just wasted by this society and this economy and these people…………………………………………………..
…………….. drunk, uni is where it all happens……………… I dont think so.

……. I said my third NO. …..
“is all you people ever do is have relationships, socialize and drink?? in the woods??”……………………………………..i said…….

…………………..”enjoy the conversation and then blank u afterwards”……………………… HOW DID MY PARENTS………
……. EVER MAKE FRIENDS?………..

As for my friends in IoC, I’ll give them peace……………..
…………IF i was happier…………………………………………….
failing all the time…….

………………………I can’t do this. I can’t do this to anyone……………

lingering………………….

…………….I can’t tell……………………………………………………………………….I have to pick up and move on.

—–2 hours later—-
Most times people dont wanna say it, so I will.

My thoughts are evaded by public things, It feels stupid to think that peoples cultures can rub of on you. I’m resisting, resisting and yet I can’t fight back the feelings. So I write..

Then I look back and think, shit that was a stupid feeling, why was i STRESSING EVERYTHING’S FINE NOW! no..no….what does that mean for me?for the people around me? and will that same pain come back to haunt me?

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About Dramasque Diva

Hi I'm Dramasque Diva. My blog is all about what is in my head. My blog name is Dramastrois after the 3 personalities I assume on a daily basis. Dramasque's 3(trois is french for 3). I usually write really random stuff, some of those include poems, stories, sex stories even.. lol. I have a combination of stuff on my blog. so by all means, come and check it out if you're interested n what goes on in my head!!

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