Posted January 13th 2011
Right after I wrote him the final message of insult. I rememeber abusing him so much, I was so angry that day. What’s a girl to do if she thinks about her x?
And one crazy turn of events leads to a correspondance and mocking email from him “and the way you were flossing with that pretty girl swag…”i still remember. Am I mad to have abused somebody that much? is it inhuman?
So, maybe its out of my system. Maybe I unlocked the devil for one second out of curiousity and let him back in to my life. I hope that email will lock him back out again into the depths he came from..for good.
I wrote this poem right after I wrote the email.
Moments of weakness are something I’ve allowed,
Plowing through the seasons,
Looking at the nows,
Now I’m down and I’m out what’s a girl to do..
What’s a girl to do when she can’t keep up with you,
I can’t stay wrapped,
I can’t stay secluded..
I should continue this poem about my x that got me deluded,
But I can’t..
I’m so angry about that ego,
That tiny little ego that glows so bright and evil,
I can’t do this anymore…
What’s a girl to do when a guy wants more,
What’s a girl to do when she feels like a whore,
Moments of weakness,
Bringing me stress,
Look at this dress,
Call for distress,
I can’t run after people anymore,
Long gone are the days I used to be a knock on the door,
I can’t do this,
Moments of weakness