dont wonder why im writing this, just don’t wonder but think…
if i thought about doing this its because i didnt think,
i just wrote what i was feeling,
i just tried to still the screaming,
the screaming noise inside my head,
telling me im already dead,
without him im barely smiling,
without him im barely crying,
without no indifferent feeling,
im just feeling so damn dead,
i called this note my blind eyes,
truth doth dress in white skies,
but innocence is bathed with nothing,
just the cloak of morality sinking,
how far can one girl sink here,
strong fortress built around here,
ignorance of love painted clear,
ignorance of ignorance close near,
i cant seem to analyze words these days, everything seems like a big haze,
im just really into feeling, blind eyes that seem so unseeing, but they are.
I got ripped when i didnt stay,
but now im standing for logic of today,
chose reason over cloudy “somedays”.
chose white flag over rebbeling days,
blind eyes fail me once again,
im choosing not to become insane,
im loosing my mind deep within,
blind eyes no longer….this boy no stronger,this love’s a goner..
this reason’s the winner..my eyes are open,
im blind no longer.
I wrote this poem a long time ago the words still ring in my head, a part of me from another place that id like to include in my future